knowing is half the battle. sometimes i consciously or subconsciously create stories and make grand plans that i then live around.
it is tough for me to be that 'floater in the water' heh... to just accept what comes in each day. To live in the moment. sigh, to just be. Just be. Then one lives (they say). It is like running... which I have recently come to enjoy again.... I can be out on a several mile (or km, as they say here) run.... but isn't it funny how it is kinda a known runner's thing (even på norskman!) that the 1st 10 minutes you are 'fighting thru hell' just to keep going. But if you can make it thru that usually you can settle in and really enjoy the experience. I have definitely found this to be true --- but perhaps also because I like to start my runs on a slight uphill gradient for some reason.... in any case, back to my point.. I've found on these runs that I can only 'find my stride' where I'm not seeking to adjust or knowing I'm struggling for short bursts, maybe 20 paces or so, lil more if I'm lucky. Just so strange --maybe to a perfectionist-- that one can't RUN RIGHT straight outta the box, and every stride. Every stride, why isn't your form on. Not that I have that kinda voice, I really enjoy just being outdoors.... but just intriguing to me how difficult in life it is to 'live' (in the moment), as well as on runs, find the stride.
And back to why I even started to write.... it was about heh, forgetting the big master plans that you have consciously or subconsciously set up for yourself, and instead just living today, in the now, as in minute to minute, just being, enjoying, sharing your love with the world. Smile.